I tend not to sleep when I feel bored. There is some feeling guilty about doing nothing. Because of that guiltiness, sometimes I don't want to sleep. It seems like my body doesn't understand why I have to sleep. Knowing what I have to do and taking action are quite different. Yeah, the latter is harder. Yesterday I slept at 5:30 in the morning... wow... I have to wake up at 7:30 today, and now it's already almost 2 o'clock... I don't know what's gonna happen :(
Thesedays I'm trying to rearrange things in my mind. Maybe because of this rearranging process, I don't want to sleep. During daytime, I guess I'm doing pretty well. I read books I borrowed (there are five books!!) and think about what to do when I go back. Just starting reading habit 3 of 7 habits of highly effective people, I'm trying to move on to action. So far, I tried to proact. For example, I'm trying to answer politely to my parents and playing with my brother before I move out from my house. That was habit 1. Guess it's working pretty well, except on my sleeping.
Habit two is 'keep the end in your mind'. And in this chapter, the concept of mission statement appears. I tried to write it, but it was hard.... :( Will I be able to write even one sentence? Still working on it...
I'll write my mission statement on this blog. Now just realized that I don't 'have to' write my diaries on my notebooks, 'cause typing is much faster than handwriting and fast enough to keep up my thoughts. When my trying to handwrite what I was thinking, the scrawling makes me feel excited as if the piece of writing becomes more meaningful. On the other hand, I cannot overtake my random thoughts.
Anyway, really really need to sleep, but there's no desire to sleep.... I need to pray, but I think I'm not trying enough. Please, my friends, ask God to make me extreeeeeeeemely tired so that I would go to sleep earlier. What should I do now, 2 o'clock in the morning?
where's the mission statement?
ReplyDeleteReally? Want us to pray for you to be extremely tired? Why, I've never done such a thing!
ReplyDeleteI'll pray that you'll be able to SLEEP!
Thank you, Chris!! I really need to sleep... these days I sleep about 4 to 5 hours per day
ReplyDeleteI also certainly pray for you to sleep Seunghee. I used to have unusual sleeping habits, too, so I know how frustrating that can be. - Tom
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