What am I thinking now? Even I took a pill of allergy medication for sleeping, it's not working... First day it worked, then after that day it's not working anymore. Tried to call the doctor, then he didn't get his phone.
I'm sitting on the floor, and will fall asleep on the floor since there's no bed or desk or chair in my room. There's no light at all which I can turn on if I turn off my laptop. But thank God, I got a piece of blanket :)
Having a migrane during daytime, I was quite sad until right before I met Grisel, and then Miho and Adela. I was trying to write letters for people I want to thank, but well... I wrote some letters, but not as much as I expected. Ahhhhhh now the problem is there are no more letter paper and envelop. Where can I write? I shouldn't have spent all of my money...
Such a bad daughter I am... I feel like I'm torturing my parents until the moment I go back to Daejun. I wanted to help them to pack and clean but I didn't. Well, usually my priority is 'relationship' and among the people I have relationship with, I think friends are prior to family, in my case. So I went out to meet my friends for the last time and just let the rest of my family deal with all the stuff moving out. Then now I'm feeling so guilty... Of course I did 'my' packing and dealt with 'my' room. But I know this is not enough. This is just being selfish. I want to make an opportunity to repay for their favors.
Oh, now I can understand Jiyeon. Packing is such a hard job. I'm not physically exhausted at all, but emotionally, I just want to give up everything I'm doing. I want to give up getting sleep, give up praying, give up the trip to Washington, give up being nice to other people. But I'm so sure that I'll never give up, since God is with me and he knows every tear that comes from my eyes. Yes, I'll just pray and have some private time with God. I will be okay tomorrow...
Isaiah 45:7 ESV
I form light and create darkness, I make well-being and create calamity, I am the Lord, who does all these things.
Hi Seunghee,
ReplyDeleteI'm a fan of your blog (along with many others). Please continue to write inspiring words and remember God loves you and people are always thinking about you.
C
Times of transition are difficult, but I'm sure you'll make it through Seunghee. And I'm sure you love your parents, but we all have difficult times when we just can't function well (especially when emotions are involved!).
ReplyDeleteGood verse to remember: "As the Father has loved me, so have I loved you. Now remain in my love." - John 15:9
I'll keep you in my prayers. - Tom
Thank you so much, Chris and Tom :) I'm looking forward to seeing you this coming Saturday...
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