First week in Daejon

Still looking around for the right church... Today, I went to the biggest church in Daejon, Saeronam church. I went to an English service with two of my friends. The praising and worship was so graceful, and pastor's sermon was very touching even his English pronunciation was not good. I really want to share this with all my blog readers :)

"Now I commit you to God and to the word of his grace, which can build you up and give you an inheritance among all those who are sanctified." Act 20:32, NIV

This verse is from one of the last speaking of apostle Paul to the Ephesian elders. He was about to leave the church because God's word was given to him, which was to go Jerusalem where imprisonment was waiting for him. Paul knew that he wouldn't be able to see those people again in his physical life. Even though he didn't want to leave, because it was time as God had spoken to him, he left.
Sometimes God answers our prayers in a different way, in an unexpected way. We usually ask God for a way that we feel comfortable, but sometimes it's not the way He wants us to be. Trust in God, that's what we need. Yes, saying goodbye is very hard for everyone but there is a certain time that we need to move on. Apostle Paul told the people that they might not be able to meet again during the rest of their life. But in God, we are one, and we are together forever. Even though we are apart, we can pray for each other.

These days I tend to do something not meaningful, such as jumping around websites without any specific purpose. Still miss Boston and Park street church. However, this is the time I need to move on, so that I can grow up as God's will. Still, we who are in God, are all together. Thank you, Lord!

In the early morning

I didn't wake up early. It's 2 o'clock in the morning, and I haven't gone to sleep yet. There are some things that I'm waiting for.. some things that I don't even know what they are. These days I'm doing quite well. I'm searching for new churches, I moved to another place, and I'm meeting my dear friends at least once in two days. I reagularly work out , my eating is normal, but one thing that is physically missing in my daily life is sleeping. Sometimes I'm just waiting for something until that happen without knowing what I am waiting for. I can spend this free time by reading Bible or praying... At first I planned to write what I learned from some new Korean churches everyweek on my blog, but apparently I'm not working at all. I took notes in English and that taking notes helps me a lot to understand some difficult Korean words. I wrote 4 pages already in my diary.. When would I update those good messages?

What am I waiting for... 내가 무엇을 기다리고 있는 걸까...
The logic is so funny :) I'm actually asking myself what I am thinking right now.

First post in August

Ah... It's been around 2 weeks since I came back from Boston. There's no internet access at my home, so these days I'm looking for a new place where I can access to internet everyday. Unfortunately, cafes in Pohang usually don't provide wireless internet, so it's very hard... I really miss Boston, and now I can feel that I love Boston. I was born in Seoul, lived in Pohang, but my spiritual hometown is Boston, where God raised me up.
Actually, nothing much has changed. I thought there would be more opportunity to meet people when I come back, but that wasn't true. People are busy here, and even people who are not busy pretend as if they are busy. Hmm... interesting... It's so interesting to look at Korean people from the perspective of Korean-American (I don't know whether I'm Korean-American or not :) but I feel so). I recognized that I look at normal things as if they are abnormal, such as ordering Americano at Starbucks in Korean.
I can find myself being afraid of something. I haven't figured what that 'something' is until now, but I keep asking to myself. What am I so afraid of? Wanting to put a new sentence in my mission statement, which is 'Do not fear something you haven't faced yet', but I figured out practicing the statement is very hard. Human are born to fear what we don't know...