The Young Victoria

In this winter, I promised to my English teacher that I will join the movie review in the beginning of the Feb. This movie "review" is a little bit different from what people know as normal. While participating, the teacher will anoint some people to say exactly after what the actors and actresses said. So people should listen very carefully and do the dictation before they participate. This way of practicing English was actually quite helpful for me since I was in middle school, and since I'm preparing a formal English test, I decided to join. Well, I don't even know the movie title except that the abbreviation is C.F. All I konw is that the movie is English.
So I decided to watch 'The Young Victoria' first to check if I understand English accent.
Well, the movie was quite great :) However, I couldn't understand every English especially the accent of German-born mother. At first, the movie was interesting because it describes the loneliness of Queen Victoria very well. Maybe in these days, there are less people who are lonely as the Queen but a lot more people feel loneliness than the people at Victoria age. I agreed to the tears falling down from her eyes... I tell someone how I feel, but I have no one whom I can talk. That's what I feel the most during the semester...
Second one that I want to focus is the love between Albert and Victoria. I even cried a bit when I saw the scene. Their love reminded me how a true relationship means to my life. One true relationship, and that's all we need not to feel lonely. We are not Queen by ourselves. There must be some people who may serve us to be Queen. We might be a queen in our own world but not in the real world. So please, don't be arrogant and stubborn even to yourselves, especially if you want that one true relationship.

Lost my dream?

I've been very sick for about 4 days. I got ringer shot yesterday and slept for 6 hours before the sunset. It's just hard for me to stand up and roam around. It feels like every organ of my body cries out against my order. Headache, cough, dizzyness, fever, sore throat, muscular ache, sniveling and so on... When have I been sick this much for the last time? Maybe it was about 8 years ago? I hate to skip the classes, but I didn't have any other choice. Just eat and sleep and eat and sleep and...
What made me so weak? Where am I? I feel so lost in the mist. I've lost my dreams. The sickness made me think about myself. I was not the kind of girl I see myself right now. I THOUGHT I WAS healthy, honest, generous, diligent and faithful. Who is the girl sitting in front of my laptop and typing on the screen?
Whoa... So many things I've lost since last year, which are health and passion. What should I do to get them back to my life? So lost to arrange my thoughts...

Zoned out

It's been a very long time since I wrote my last piece of blogging. Now I'm sophomore, majored in ME(mechanical engineering, as I expected) and there are people who are 3 years younger than me in my school. I was hoping to be a little bit more mature when I become sophomore, I mean, in terms of relationship. But every moment I ask to myself, what am I doing now? I cannot even take care of myself. An evidence without uncertainty is that I don't study as hard as I did last semester. To go back to Boston, I promised to myself that I will study very hard. Well how about now? I have an exam for Special Lectures in English Literature 2 days later, but I spent most of my time for just searching around the internet. Besides, there are 3-homework due on tomorrow :( Not willing to work on them.



Ah... Plz pray for me, to be as passionate as I was before.